Friday at Friday's

I love the restaurant, Friday's. It's my favorite. Or one of them. It's not the greatest. But for drinks,appetizers and dessert, it is pretty good. (I only really like one kind of main course there, the salmon honey glazed ?) At least compared to chili's it's sooooo much better.


But this happened a while ago. and by while I mean... 10/4/09 (6:45pm when I began typing it) Reason why I am writing about it is because well, I had this draft here. It's a rather funny story. But I shall make it short and sweet.

Selene waited so long at Friday's, In the end Georgie didn't go and neither did Aphrodite... SO I rushed over as quickly as I could. I felt so bad... I didn't know we would take that long.. I got there, me and Selene got a table but then we decided to sit by the bar to get half price.. LOL, let me tell you Selene was asked by our waitress how old she was.. I knew immediately that it was because someone wanted to buy her a drink. But Selene said, "I'm 18- I mean 19.. 19." Eventually, the "icebreaker" came.

IceBreaker: Hello ladies.
Selene and I: Hi~
IceBreaker: Now Ladies, there are two gentlemen that want to buy you two a drink or a dessert. Now how old are you two ladies?
Selene and I: . . .19
(me I wanted to tell him I had a boyfriend at that moment, but it wasn't the right moment)
IceBreaker: Okay than forget that I offered anything alcoholic, but the dessert is still on the table.
Me: Actually we already ordered our dessert.
IceBreaker: Well let them pay for it.
Me: I have a boyfriend.
IceBreaker: Oh.. well that's going to be hard. Now we have two guys, one is going to be left out... Now what to figure out.
Me: Just tell them that we're lesbians.
(Selene's eyes went wide, as I asked for her hand)
IceBreaker: Woah, quick thinking... now that might just do it.
( Selene and I went around holding hands and feeding each other dessert the rest of the night and pretending we were lesbian)

What a great night :)

Enjoyed my day.

I've spent money again. I am a big spender, I enjoyed my day with Selene. She and I have always spent a good time together. I feel like she is a very kind person. At least to me. I know that this is small, in contrast to my other blogged posts but there isn't much to write. I had fun with her, and I hope she had fun with me.

Oh and Selene.. MY TUMMY IS SOOOOO FULL!!! Ugh.. taco bell.. damn you and your deliciousness...


But all in all, Selene would know what I am referencing in this convo.. LOOK at our email about the friendship thing.. I rather not post it here but.. as long as you and I know. We are enlightened.

Oh my goodness...

What a streak of luck... or divinity. Okay okay, let me start from the beginning.

OKay Georgie and I were walking my dog, my Slushie was at work and I decided to do some school work with her. See I am in her class only for her, I am not actually taking it. Now, in a sense, I do have to do my best although it is not for a grade. It's for practice. As an actor I can't get enough of practice.

The thing is, we were running lines paying attention to little else, except walking my dog.. I have to tell you. We were distracted only for my dog.SO after we walked the dog came home talked about what we needed for the scene. Little else mattered... Or so I knew... Cause when I got into my car to drop Georgie off. Halfway to another main street. I made a very dangerous u-turn.... Like I didn't care if there were cars or anything I MADE that U-turn. I believe it was clear but I have no idea.... I just WENT. The reason: I LOST MY NECKLACE THAT SLUSHIE GAVE ME :( Now as soon as I got home, I looked through my room, walked with Georgie the whole area we walked. I was sooo upset.. I kept having a feeling it was at the smoothie place or it's parking lot. I felt all the sorrow one could feel, I wasn't thinking of the future. I wanted to cry. But I couldn't take Georgie to the smoothie place again and make her search with me.. it wasn't fair to her. So I took her too the college we both go to so she can get into her car and drive home. She knew how bad I felt, she's really my soul twin.

I kept apologizing to Slushie, because I felt so bad. I love Him and everything he gives me I hold dear. You can only imagine how I felt when I lost my necklace. Now the next morning my gut was telling me ( more like a feeling guided me..I just felt hollow in my stomach) to go back to the smoothie place.. or call them first and check while you are on the way. I did call them. They didn't have it or find it on their floor. I knew one last place to look... The parking lot.

I prayed to my goddess and god that somehow it would still be there. I don't think I had to promise anything, but I knew I would have to be kinder.. I believe I have to be kinder to my mother... who isn't all there. Now enough about her... I was about to turn in to park at the same parking space I parked in. . . . . . . I had my face plastered to the window so I immediately saw it. My feeling was so powerful that it struck me I almost left my car in drive.. so I put it in park ran out picked it up ran back inside and checked it.. It looked bent but I don't care, you can't notice. The only thing is it does have a few scratches on the front from the rough pavement maybe someone parked over it or something. I am so happy no one took it.

I didn't curse it.... I actually said, well if anyone does take it. I hope it fills their life with happiness. Like it did mine...

OH BOY WAS I RIGHT!!!
I was soooo happy. Relieved. It's like when you have to pee really badly, but you have been holding it in for a long while.... You can't run or you will pee. You have to try to walk quickly cause it is almost there you don't care to lock the door even in a public stall you get the closest on to the door you still check for toilet seat cleanliness while you are unzipping unbuckling and or unbuttoning. Then you pull down your pants and pee like a racehorse and .... you let out that moan of relief.... I believe that was how relieved I was... That physical need.

Yes.

That need.

I am so glad I have my necklace back, I am not wearing it at the moment. I am waiting till we make it able to wear... The silk rope we need to burn the knot..and I am going to buy a long chain for it.


Oh I am so happy. My love and I are smiling... I love it...


YES!!!

Grimm's Complete Fairy Tales

I have fully immersed myself with these children stories. Oh I fell in love with them before but now I have my own and am reading them chronologically. Even though there is no real order. I just like it better that way. So as I must comment. I still have not received my blue scarf. I also lost my necklace today, the one that my boyfriend bought me. I felt very depressed. I couldn't do anything. I feel horrible about it. He says not to worry, but I love him and in turn love every gift he gets me... Stupid rope.. it was always untying itself in inopportune moments.

:) Good, no rocky boat

Yeah, for a while... My boyfriend and I were in very rocky waters. It's good that we aren't now, I don't think I would be happy if we were. Since well, you can only guess a fragment of how much I love him. Unless you are in love with someone right now... Well.. you would be able to guess a tinier bit more I believe. I realized that no relationship is perfect, that you have to work on/at it.

Anyways, he can't go to the cast party. So I will be taking Selene, she is so nice to me. But she won't take anyones crap I bet, like if I was mean and stuff. But poor Georgie, she has an all nighter to do. She will go for an hour but she has to leave after that to the all nighter. Sometimes, I wish I could pause time. But that would fuck up our axis... among other things like our rotation, and all the clocks in the world would be minutes late. Cast party= <3


I cannot wait till later, why? well... Callbacks are today and I will find out if I get called back. I know I won't because..... I effed up on my monologue. Oh but Selene auditioned... However, there will always be this fear I might lose her. Cause well... I am an oddball, Georgie is an oddball, Aphrodite is an oddball. The oddballs are the outcasts of the theatre group(but the good kind of outcasts), we aren't the regular kind. We are also outcasts of "normal" society, because we are "Drama" Kids. Georgie is a techie, Aphrodite and I are actors, and Selene will hopefully join us. But we don't want to lose her. Mainly because there are factions within factions. If you catch my drift, I don't do that.... but not everybody loves like I do. I have a heart for almost everyone I meet. They can abuse it, use it, or whatever with it. But I do have a heart for them. That is why I say 'I love you' to them. If they break it... maybe they might get that heart back or maybe it is irreparable. But I love them, each and everyone of them. In their own way... Sometimes I break down though, and think I am not loved. But why wouldn't they love me?

I know they do, even if they don't show it.


Hope my boyfriend doesn't get jealous. He owns the whole heart. There are just many factions within it. ;)

Two words... Math Test

Okay I am nervous about this math test.. Why? Cause I got a B on the first one. An F on the second. I need an A on this one. I also need to memorize my monologue. As well as get some art supplies for my mask. I am just so tired though. I haven't slept that much lately. So being perpetually tiresome isn't good. Especially when I rather lay down in bed and sleep than study. Which I need to do right now.

I must say my goodbyes. I will let you know what grade I get.

Unless it's another F. Than I might as well die. This is the second time I am taking this class. I don't need an F.

A Deeper Appreciation

Yes, it is true. I have a deeper appreciation for crew and all sorts of tech. As an actor, I always have been very courteous, and loving of anyone who made me up or dressed me or did anything involving the show.

Now, I see (since I am crewing the show) how much of a relief I am to anyone that crews. I am sweet. Most actors are not, I do not like that I do not get the same treatment of how I treat my crew from the actors. Most of them I know very well. Why must actors have diva modes? I do not understand this. I never had diva mode, unless I was pretending to. But damn it.

I hate being a bitch. It sucks cause I can be sweet most of the time. But if I do one mean thing I would be labeled a bitch.


I do not want to be a bitch, why? No one likes a bitch. . . I don't like a bitch.

So excuse me, I am sorry if I get frustrated and sometimes I want to cry because I just feel like bonking them on the head and then... taking their place in the show.

But I don't know the lines.. I know some.. but not all of them. I also wouldn't want to do that because well... I rather not.
I love acting, but this isn't a play for me. I could, but it would suck with me in it.

SO I am just venting. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Otherwise, dead actors might be posted on the newspaper.. Just kidding... maybe.

Late night

Okay, so I am helping with this current play and it's been tough on everybody. The cast, the crew, My boyfriend.
But I just want you to have a little update. Lately, I feel as if I am losing touch. I use to be so on top of my projects for anything theatre. Now I am just letting it ebb away and I cannot let that happen. Why? well, if I do. I can say good bye scholarship. I think I am one of the many that likes to receive money I don't have.

My boyfriend, I feel bad for him. He says he is second to theatre from the amount of time I spend there compared to with him. But I cannot help that. I will definitely try to give him some more time. But I can only do so much. Luckily, I listen and I can take this and I have enough patience for him. He doesn't know it, but he will eventually.

He got me something very lovely. A pretty necklace that I will wear all the time.

Oh yeah, the long awaited Chili's Story.

Alright, let me tell you number one. I HATE CHILI'S. Always have and always will. Their food is dirty, their bathrooms are a nightmare and I am no neat freak. If a neat freak was in there they would have died from far more than just suicide. It would have been a homicide because the bathroom killed them. But we went to an "okay" Chili's. I didn't check the bathroom this time. Well because. I felt that if I did, I would hate that one as well.

Now, first off, one of my lovely ladies had to go home because her boyfriend came back for a few days. She is in a long distance relationship, it started before it was long distance and they have been dating for a very long time before he had to go to college there. So as I speak to you now, do not disrespect her relationship. She had to go to his side, he was in town no one can blame her. Even though we don't want to share her.

But my two remaining ladies were still by my side. Selene and Aphrodite. They are by far the sexiest mama-sitas around. They got a table while I had to walk the one that had to leave to her car. Don't worry I had my wrench to protect myself. So my ladies were seated next to the wall, it doesn't take much to tell you that we didn't get the best service. I know, I know. Not the best, means he was an a-hole and gave all the sex-ay ladies elsewhere much better service. I am no waitress, though I don't mind getting a job that I have to waitress, but I know the whole service system. I am not the best tipper, but I am not a cheapskate either. I would have given a better tip if I got better service. I demand better service! Of course after those hoochi women left that was when we got it. I must say, the only thing I enjoy about it is that I learned from Selene that I can order whatever I want. If I don't like an ingredient I can change it. She is by far a great teacher in cuisine.

Also, while we were waiting for our order. Aphrodite was having problems with her man. Perfectly understandable, every couple has problems. We just get through them, and hope they are fixed. That sparked a conversation with Selene because of her ex. You may think "Oh no, not one of those man-hating girls night out stories." No this is not one of them, this is the empowerment of a single lady finally breaking free of a relationship that was killing her. This abuse that she endured and did not see would one day take it's toll. I never told her, because well. Whatever makes her happy, makes me happy. So I conveniently for her sake did not look at the flaws. Why? Cause in my head, I seriously thought that whatever mess was going to happen. They could fix it. Together. But he- pardon my asterisks- F**ked up. Not only with his relationship with her, but his friendship with me. MOST of his FRIENDSHIPS in fact. His word, is shit in my book. His excuses are lies.

I won't state what he did. I know what he did and I don't have to share it with a third party, to gain sympathy for her or for anyone to be empathetic. But to seriously say one fact, anything he says cannot be trusted. I've known that for a while. I met Selene through him, she is by far one of my greatest friends. I fell in love (friendship wise) with her, she is a great person and she was a great girlfriend to him. I could give examples but... That would mean a longer post. Let us just continue on with the story...

Mainly that was how our night went on, we talked about the men in our lives. Well They talked. I just listened, I have no problems with Slushie. But by far he is the best boyfriend I have had in my life. I don't want to give that up, and I know Selene and Aphrodite know that he makes me happy too.

Okay but through this. One of the funniest moments was this.. I had ordered a drink. I tried it, and it was good but it had strawberry seeds in it. So every time I took a sip, I had a very uncomfortable feeling of strawberry seeds rushing into my mouth. So I decided not to drink anymore, instead Selene let me drink some of hers and when a refill came for her she got the new one, I got what was left of the old one. I took my old drink and you know those little cardboard boxes that has four sides and no top or bottom. I had placed it over the disgusting liquid and kept it there. When I finished the drink Selene had given me he came back and asked if I wanted a refill, I said no and if I could have a different drink. like the drink Selene was having. He complied. So that was good, when it came to pay we got separate checks. Selene and I, gave two bucks each. Aphrodite did not like his service at all. So she gave nothing. In total, He received $4.00 in tip. Pretty good considering his awful service. But I must say, that overall. I enjoy my ladies company. I do not have that many women in my life. I do prefer women friends, although often, I scare them away.

Having male friends is so much easier to handle. Especially since I've been raised in my adolescent to now years by a male. I never had proper female influence. I am a man in a woman's body? But not transsexual, I could never say I am.Would never want to insult those that are transgendered. but I have placed myself as if I had a category it would be, a bisexual "straight acting-gay" male trapped in a woman's body. Which I think he does enjoy. However, I do not believe that I am a man trapped in a woman's body. Maybe I have multiple personalities within me and I do not allow them to come to surface. It's plausible but not possible. I would know. Wouldn't I?

So yes. Here I am, Vanilla. The happy gaystraightbisexual? man in woman's body ;) As a straight woman, I am all good.

So..

This morning I woke up. I am not a very morning person but I woke up and then I woke my daddy up. Well let me tell you this. I was tired. DIdn't sleep till 1:10 (or more, more likely) Then I woke up at 5:15 and woke my daddy up Let me tell you something... WOW. I woke him up, which also woke up my mom.. Hell broke loose.

We like to let her sleep in, but see they locked the door and the lock pick was no where in sight. My mom is paranoid so.. anyways. I knocked on the door, (which if you know the way my house is set up..You would understand that I could pick that door. without seeing anything if they were.) Instead I just knocked till my mother, woke my dad up. Because she is the light sleep from how paranoid she is. Like any sound, movement anything. it's a wonder how I can sneak past her without her knowing.

Yes I know. Weird huh? Look long story short, when I say hell broke loose. WWIII happened and you didn't know it. ( believe we are at a much larger number in my house. But eh..)


Now, I am trying to get a hold of my dad. But he is busy at work so I understand, I am thinking about calling him again because I need to ask him if I could go out tonight. Mind You. I am 19. I might be old enough to decide this, but I have to ask him. I can't NOT ask him. I just have to. If he says no. It's no, and I don't go. He says yes, (which I hope) then I go. But He always makes me feel guilty about it. like I am going to stay awake till you come home. :/


I HATE when he does that. If I don't get to go to the party at least I get to go to TGIF. It's ladies night. I still need to write about Chili's.