Okay 4 followers and rising...

Perfect Sliders

Bethan-Marie

AlueByAnna

God Is Among Us


I know, I have been beating around the bush. I now have 4 followers. Of course the last one is religious, but I can't help but wonder how religious they can be. Just as a warning to those people who are highly religious.. I will list the following which I am not sure that might offend you (just so I don't offend you in future reference):

I am a

Theatre Major

I am

Wiccan

I'm pretty sure that sums it up....

I just don't want to offend any of my followers that may view this as some sort of scream for help or need of conversion. I was raise catholic and I discovered that it wasn't for me. My cousins are christian and they didn't provide the best reference except show that they were a stereotypical type of follower. So if you are open to me in general... Then continue following.

Besides I hardly talk about religion. I feel like just because I am something doesn't mean I have to share it with the world. Although, I am on my way to become a Priestess. I will not blog about everything that comes into contact with me as some sort of message blah blah blah. Anyways, I would like to state. If you think I was converted by some sort of sexual festival orgy type thingy where satan or the devil was involved.. Sadly you are mistaken, my ties with the moon converted me.I don't talk bad about other religions, even if they talk about mine. The only thing I find offensive is when someone assumes something about my religion, I don't do that to others and I do not like that done to me. There are many things I do not deserve in the world because of such nonsense thrown at me.

I will gladly tell you all the answers you need to know. Ask me and I will answer. Because the unknown is the most feared.

The reason why I am stating this now, is because

I do not

want to offend anyone. especially

MY

followers.

Except for Twilight fans.. I can insult them for hours. ;)

As a last note though. If you are christian or catholic and you follow my blog you can also follow

Godisamongus

. I think what that person has to show is interesting (art work etc.). Feel free to browse my followers, feel free.

Wow, 30 posts :)

Someone is a little ambitious. Well, I mean come on. Who isn't?
We are all striving to obtained something. For me, it's just something to help my education more. I won't have to worry about money for a while. I must say one thing, I am a big procrastinator. I should be studying my monologue. I will. But then again... I am sooo lazy. Monologues for me are easy and yet hard at the same time. I like learning lines with other people. Monologues don't give me cues.. I give myself cues. It's difficult, but I know I will pull through. Comedic monologues are hard to find. Cause if you take a drama monologue and some how make it funny. It can be, but if you take a comedic monologue and just do it. It can not be as funny as it is in the scene that it was used in.


Tricky things monologues.


In other news, Georgie and I, we discovered while buying stage makeup that I can look good in blonde. I shall post up photos now :)

On the Phone right now with Slushie. ( Slushie is in one of the photos)

I am so tired..

Between work and school and work.. wow, I am just so tired. Like I want to hang out with everybody and do what I need to do. But sometimes there is just so much stress. I don't mind, cause I can go without feeling it for a long while. But I know it's there and it can exasperate me if I let it. So for those that I do not take into consideration with my time. I'm sorry.


School, Slushie and Work. Work pays... School educates... and Slushie loves me. Although he sometimes complains with the work and school schedule, which I don't mind cause I love spending time with him. But sometimes when I spend time with him.... I'm sitting there watching him play video games. And I LOVE video games.. But I really don't want to spend my time off like that. Luckily he hasn't done that since I got work and school taking up my time. I think he realizes sub-consciously, that although we both enjoy the other's presence there.. We have to have some time apart in order to love each other more. When I was in Orestes, me and him would spend time together but we weren't everyday spending so much spare time together. Now we are everyday. I like seeing him, but sometimes I want to relax. I could at his house, I just can't relax too much. If I close my eyes he thinks that he is boring me.


I also must say, that I do not want him to think I am trying to distance myself from him. Just I have a lot of responsibility.. I always did, and I will. At first my schedule is difficult to manage, but then again.... I'll get the hang of it.


In other news, day off tomorrow. Paycheck on monday and.. my college textbooks should be coming in.

I was recognized...

Today at work, Someone recognized me from one of my previous performances in Orestes. Which is amazing, cause I played a chorus member. Okay, for those who don't know. Ian and I, we were in Orestes. Along with the rest of the cast and crew. It was so much fun, a lot of work. But fun.

I have to say that acting, is my line of work. I don't know if I am good at it. I just know that I am happy doing it.
Thank you DMX for giving me my opportunity. She is a great director, and a wonderful person.

This is a Big F * U * to Twilight

FROM YOURS TRULY


Okay, I understand I'm not the best youtube video person.. Well I do it all on my webcam and I don't have good lighting.. I also don't have the quietest or the most invisible of roomies ( I live with my family).

Now, please Enjoy The video. By the way , Personal shout out to my very good friend, Ian. Without your link I couldn't have done it without you. PEOPLE do not flame him, he has read the books. ME however I detest them to a degree that you do not know.

Shout out to my followers

FOLLOWERS:

PERFECT SLIDERS

BETHAN-MARIE

ALUEBYANNA




I like that people are following me, I wonder is it because I have something interesting. I don't know, but for my followers and anyone privately following. BE safe. (for those reading... FOLLOW ME >:D MUAHHHAHAHA )
So For my followers, see if anyother person has an interesting blog. I know that perfectsliders is definitely one you can't miss. I force him to write actually :) He is one of my very good friends.


I also have something to share, one time I did a video blog about Scarlett Johanssen. But I mistaked her for Nicole Kidman. BUT ... it still proves my point that Scarlett Johanssen should not play 'Black Widow'. Now this video is actually about Miley Cyrus and her stripper action.

Wow, I have butterflies.

I feel weak and sick. I think it's anxiety for the coming term. See, Tomorrow is going to be another day. But it's is a new term, I hope I have everything I need. I'm thinking about what will happen, I like that school is soon. I love learning, just... Sometimes I wonder if people will all of a sudden discover something about me they do not like and then everyone hates me for it. I don't know... It's just paranoia, in a way... it's better to be hated than forgotten. I have been forgotten before, and have been hated before... so yeah. I know.

Anyways, I'm taking a few... okay five classes. If I could take more, I would. Tomorrow, is math :( Ugh.. *lurch, blurp*
but then after math ( I have a break which I believe i will be working), there is Stagecraft (which I take along with Tamster) :) Can't wait.. I'm not good with a drill, but I can learn.

Then on Tuesday. Early on is scene study, which I love analyzing scripts... I even do it for other actors. ( By just giving them ideas, and whatever they tell me ..I build on that and keep on handing them ideas that they can take.) Then after that, dare I say it? Stage Makeup! I really can't wait. I know I will love that class... I know the teacher and she is amazing, she is the director that gave me my first chance on stage. Thank the Goddess for DMX (inside joke, kicked your way Ian). Than Dmx for play directing, which I have convinced one of the most fabulous women in the world to join this class. Ah, I'm excited for my new year. I may be a tad bit nervous, but I am very excited.

I also can't wait till there is auditions for the fall play.. Well I can wait, just I'm waiting as patiently as can be while being extremely excited.


EEK!!! :D







I hope that I do well in the script analysis class, the last time I was in a creative class.. My creativity was impeded upon. So I retaliated by showing up late, and turning in my assignments late. I got a C. But wow.. I really didn't want to be in that class, I thought she would give me something more... She never gave me more.

Hook me up- The Veronicas

I feel like sometimes this song talks about me.

'Anywhere is good, Hook me up... Like feeling the rain in my hair.'

Like if you look at the way I look at it, it makes me feel like.. 'Look I'm bored, I want to have fun right now. Let's go hang out, I don't care where.'
Most likely it has like some other meaning behind it, but I like to take songs the way I take them. Why? Because other wise songs have to deal with sex or something.. I wish that music would have more depth, like classical does cause it doesn't have lyrics.. But if music has lyrics, well it loses the depth it can have. At least with the majority of people.

Like I could probably show you what I mean.. Take 3OH!3 's "Don't Trust me" I had to figure out what the fuck Helen Keller meant, but the singer needs to know. Not every body knows certain slang, we are not "hip". But it talks about seducing and abuse and everything.. There will always be something sexual.. I could look at it, like when it says 'and talk with your hips.' I could see that it's her walking away, but the way the whole song is.. it isn't.



Okay sorry If I am ranting... Just heard the song "Hook me up" recently and I liked it.

This goes out to my followers

We are growing in number, I can't wait to see how many followers I get when I start talking about more interesting things.. whenever that happens.

I'm very excited, are you? ;)


FOLLOWERS:

http://perfectsliders.blogspot.com/

http://bethan-marie.blogspot.com/



SO far I like what they write.. I might make a new blog too. We will see, It won't be my main one though.. (THIS IS THE MAIN ONE)

Never mind, too much hassle to create one. Well...maybe, I'll make one for rpgs that I do... LOL those are always interesting.

Roleplay

Okay, I love to roleplay. I like online one to one roleplay. But anyone can do those, what I want is a group that does tabletop roleplay. EXAMPLES: DnD ( Dungeons & Dragons), Star wars, Vampire: The Masqurade, Marvel, or Hunters: The Reckoning. I would do werewolves.. but it's so hard to find the books. But if I could to choose, I would definitely go with Vampire or Hunters first. Then Star Wars or Marvel. Dungeons & Dragons is the last thing on my list because it's difficult to level at first and I would probably die on level one somehow..... or seem like an idiot...

This is my stereotype in Vampire, creative vampire... Usually, like 'Look, I just don't care what I do, but I'll do it with you guys.' But get me angry ( like if you lead people on about me) and I kick your ass. For hunters I don't know yet... Star wars, If I'm a noble, I care about my people and I'm very good politically. Scout, I make fun of people. Jedi, I'm unorthodox and maybe a little grey in the way I look at things as good and evil. Marvel, I could easily be seen as a mutant vigilante.. I get the job done, no matter what the law wants. D&D, I would only feel like an idiot because no doubt I would do something.. stupid.

On another note, I'm trying to write a letter to President Obama. You know about the health care, troops, and gay marriage. If you haven't noticed, nothing has changed, things are only getting worse. Just in case you are worrying that I might tell the President on how to do his job, I won't. I'm just asking that he does his job.

SPAYED.

Poor kitty, taking care of her. She's taking away my Izzy time :( but I have to take care of her. I'll update with pics... later

I don't know why...

Okay..

I am a very biracial background. Let me explain:


MOM= CUBAN CHINESE

DAD= FRENCH, ITALIAN, BLACK, SPAINARD


And that is only scraping the top...


But, for some reason, I don't know why every rich neighborhood I go down

I always feel like I am going to get shot.

Like in some well off neighborhoods the inkling is there, but when I go down a really rich neighborhood... DAMN, Imagine a block of ice on your spine Except like a gun is pointing at you, in your mind. Preferably a rifle visual, with that of shotgun capability...


REASON WHY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO POST THIS:
It's a piece of me that not everyone gets to know.
I'm sorry if it's too much for you guys to understand. It's just this weird feeling I get. I don't want you guys to think any less of me, although if you do, than why read my blog? I can take critics especially since I moderate my own comments.

Sorry.

For such a long wait, I haven't posted in a while. It started from looking to find if I could do the html myself. I use to do it, but when you get to be an old coot like me.. It gets harder. Then it went to me watching netflix, and reading, ' The Picture Of Dorian Gray' .

So what has happened since I last left you... hmm, I just went today to a fair expo liquidation sale. Got some sunglasses.. Really nice. My boyfriend bought them for me.. well actually. His were twenty dollars and he got mine for free. He looks like a sexy cop when he wears his. Mhmmmmmm.. The way he looks in aviators.. maybe I'm a little biased cause after all, he is my boyfriend. Slushie just looks great and sexy in every thing. Oh my muscles in my arms hurt, and so does the ones on my stomach. We have been working out together, me and him are both lazy. But I don't want him fat, and I know he doesn't want me fat. So we help each other.

There is something I need to learn though, and for some reason I don't grasp the fact yet.... That no matter what, Slushie is going to do things for me.. Like he is going to buy me stuff and open the door for me and be a gentleman. But no matter what, I will always want to buy him things and open my door. I will let him be a gentleman, but sometimes I enjoy being the independent woman.. Of course I say this now, If he were to stop. I would think he lost interest or no longer considers me, 'His Princess'. But I love being HIS.. It makes me so happy, and we both know that what we have is special and we feel sorry for other couples. ( at least those who aren't happy, you know the ones that don't get along a lot.) Sometimes, I think me and him should start a couples podcast.... to give advice to being happy, and loving and perfect. Even though we aren't the most perfect people, we can be a perfect couple. We are the puzzle pieces that fit nicely together..


:) Now off to tell you some more.. My Dad is sort of subconsciously accepting the fact that Slushie will eventually be his son in law. It's just a matter of time, and the economy. Hopefully, I will live but that is a story for another time.....

Just thought of this..

I can't believe it's been so long, where has all the time gone.. An endless spiral to which I lose myself freely. A never ending cycle...

Home, Late :(

I don't know why, but my dad gets so upset at me when I come home late. I can understand him calling me and being worried, but it's not my fault I didn't hear my phone vibrate or anything at all. I love my dad, but he is sometimes too... Over the top. It's not like I'm out of the house with just anyone, I was with my Slushie. Which tonight, when he finally stopped playing Oblivion, he gave me a foot massage and out of nowhere he just became the most affectionate that I have ever seen him. We kissed, and cuddled. Talked about moving in together. Oh, if I had a lot of money. I would have already moved in somewhere with him.He is after all my future fiance. ( Don't worry, he knows this.)

We both plan on being together, moving in, being engaged.. than eventually marriage.
But my dad is a bit old fashioned... or shall I say, very old fashioned.
My dad won't let me go on a trip that Slushie wants to save up to take me to. (Disney)

I'm 19 years old. In college. Like, I don't like my dad not giving me the time to grow and make my own choices. After all, I'm not going to being living under his roof forever. But my dad thinks I'm just a kid. He is right, but in order to grow and mature and be my own woman. I need him to respect my choices and let me try to flap my wings... One wing may be broken, but if I don't move it.

I never will.

CURRENTLY FIXING

I'm going to try to make this blog more.. ABOUT ME

Like I want you guys to get a piece of me when you look at this. I'll tell you now. I'm no web expert.. I will try my best to do this..

Aw, Dexter...You kill people :)

Yes, I like the show. I guess I'm a fan. Although, I am a firm believer in there is no such thing as a perfect murder.. Even in O.J. Simpson's case, he only had an amazing, above and beyond Lawyer who swept the floor with anyone else. I know that although they didn't get him for murder, they got him for theft....



Okay, you guys might know this from a song.

"Shush Girl, shut your lips. Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips."

Like what kind of idiotic song writer wrote that? I looked it up in urban dictionary... the possibilities are : wear Sunglasses indoors, or, trying to find a means without any conventional help.

Well, I'm thinking... Helen Keller, the woman... sorry my mistake! Anyone else think this sucks for H.K. ?

G.I. JOE

Oh my, I remember when I was a child. does anyone remember the cartoons, probably not... But then again.. COBRA!!!!!


I can't stop shrieking that out in that damn voice. Today I am going to watch that movie, I hope that no one is there to see it. But most likely the theatre will be packed. I feel as if it's a lie. I don't believe a movie theatre should be packed like that. I can expect a real theatre to be packed like that, but the movie? I only think the place where a movie theatre should be packed is the premiere where all the celebrities are, or the midnight showing.


Anywayy, I know some people disagree with my opinion. But my opinion is subject to change. Let me tell you though, that everything depends on the situation. I will give you love for now though. I am off to Slushie's.

Talk to you later ;)... Same blog Same time.
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Meh..

When I was younger I created a whole language of "Meh".

You might think, 'Oh you got that from The Simpsons.' Then I would look at you and think you were an idiot, because seriously a very young child who didn't watch television created a word that came from a t.v. series... I will tell you that I am not like that.I like to tell the truth to the best of my ability.


Just like how, I use to be a fanfiction writer. ( I will not post my ID up here for anyone to see) I have far removed my work, because slowly but surely my work was being stolen. In pieces... to feel violated, but to let the world know. I can't prove my case, so I must neatly resign and watch my work be used. I hate watching my work be used.. They never know the proper way of using it, they try to mimic, but the greatness is not there. Or something that could be great. I'm not the best, but I can certainly tell a story with the written word. I'm not so good with telling a story through language or talking. So I guess I should have blogged my life from the start... Imagine a two year old telling you that she learned to swim today.. Except you probably couldn't understand cause she only said or wrote,

"Meh."

Slip and Fall

Ouch.

Really falling in dog piss, isn't one of my best moments.. Running to catch the cat and the only to slip and fall in it isn't at all the greatest feeling.. especially hurting your thigh, wrist and side of the arm.. Also I hit my head, but whatever. If I die because of hemorrhage, we will all know because a fatal fall in dog piss.. I don't want that on my tombstone... hell I don't want a tombstone.. I want a snow white type coffin, that way you see me decay.


Oh and so far, I'm fine just I hurt and am sore.. I guess it's better to hurt than to be numb.. (no broken bones love, no broken bones..)

From My Iphone 3gs...

Over at Slushie's.. Tell you about the television thing later. Oh and... damndamndamn

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ALright I'm home now... GRRRRR!!!
If it's not one thing it's another and then calamity!!
My t.v. no longer works yet again...

the fan broke, and the the light bulb, which is BRAND NEW, could have possibly overheated.... GGRRRRRRR!!!

I hope that I can talk later.. right now. drowning self in icecreamm~ Vanilla and chocolate with chocolate syrup and soon I'll add m&ms... i wish i owned coldstone creamery than i would have birthday cake remix over and over again..


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Slipped and fell... I'll talk to you guys about it tomorrow.. Right now it hurts too much.

Alright, the return of Television

I have been home without t.v. for a while. Like it's been boring, I usually watch my stuff through netflix cause I have this thing where I have to watch things chronologically. But I have been doing whatever is necessary, to get through this no t.v. thing

FOR ONE REASON

I wanted to play some more of my saints row 2.

So yeah, It's difficult to be patient when you have dibs on a game and then bam.. something happens where it won't let anyone play. My brother and I are excited, although I had to help my dad put the bulb in. He screamed at me, I screamed at him... Mainly because when my brother asks for something(he's on the phone) my dad thinks it's me asking for something else...


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Just in case.

Just an update, he was mad. But he thought he yelled at me. (for the record: he didn't)

I swear I deserve the longest silent treatment ever, but he didn't do that. He was worried, and as soon as he didn't see me. He immediately thought something was wrong. I'm lucky to have someone care about me so much, like my dad cares about me like that too. But to have two people care about me in that way? I'm really lucky. I appreciate their thoughts about my safety, even if I don't show it.

Readers, I hope I'm not boring you. It's no action movie or comedic relief... It's just what happens.

You can't make this stuff up, other wise it wouldn't be a blog. Now would it?

Talk To you guys later if your there..

We provide, Leverage..

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That show, "Leverage" , is getting to my favorites list.. Seriously, I recommend it. I am watching it right now on netflix. I saw the previews for season one when I was watching a movie once, and I immediately wanted to see it. I believe I was going to see Star trek... Yes I was going to see star trek. Okay I'm going to continue cause right now I am at episode 5 at exactly 21:25

Oh my, I'm going to be an addict. Besides, House M.D. and Leverage, I wonder what other shows I really love?

Well, we will see. I'll update later tonight :) And on this same post.

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Okay midday review, I'm a very bad girlfriend. Like I always seem to make my boyfriend happy. But today, I've been putting him in a bad mood. A really bad mood. He didn't want him to go to the pool today. But I made him, than when he had left. Me and my friend, (my friend, who is engaged to his friend) decide to hide.

I should have known, but I'm an idiot. He got pissed, cause he doesn't like surprises or games like that. I understand that, but I'm not perfect and I do get pissed. I really hate the silent treatment. He isn't giving me the silent treatment but he isn't really happy with me right now. So I'm slightly depressed, not fully. Because well I hope that he gets happy with me again. I just don't mean to do what I do sometimes...

I love him, a lot. I really do, so it's difficult to see him upset at me. But it's going to be something I have to work at...

What I mean by work at- work at not disappointing him. Not work at seeing him upset... I really dislike to see him upset.

I wish I could make him happy all the time.
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Too early in the morning, but hey.. what can I say?

"in every minute of the day, the truth is that I'm dead, until I'm here on stage, with you, then I'm alive instead"-Lady Gaga

A Tweet that she tweeted a long time ago. I like it, I'm not saying it's the best amazing work and have like a heart attack. But it's nice and straight to the point with a little subtlety. However, if she had my creative writing teacher, I know for sure she would get a C like I did.

That lady, although being a published author, had no IDEA what I was doing in a poem. I learned in that class, that I really do have to spell it out for readers. Let me just say to you guys who might be reading this now...

I will not treat you like idiots, I do not underestimate my readers . I like to believe that there is someone intelligent out there other than myself. Don't prove me wrong.

I know that there were a few people in my class who understood, and there was only one person who gave me any good form of criticism. That was that I do go from past tense to present tense often. It's only cause I see it, I took a screenwriting class so that got me into present tense and I like writing past tense. Because often I see the actions that are done and write it in past tense.. Now I switch back and forth. It's going to be difficult, but I'll try my best. besides..

Isn't that what Editors are for?


Sorry, If i didn't mention this but.. Good Morning :) have a nice day.

I guess..

To apply for this scholarship, I must write an essay.Using any one of these questions.

How have you used blogging to help yourself or others?
What is the most powerful social change you have seen come out of blogging?
Why did you start blogging? What does blogging mean to you? Why is blogging important to you?

I hope that I can find out how to answer these, in an honest and good way.. Or at least elaborate on them.

So I'm on my way to find out my blog zen..

first stop, what the hell is a blog spammer?

* OOOOHHH, Good... just Spam bots in general*

Working on Monologues :D

I really like monologues, but they are much harder to do when you don't have someone else to give you a line so you know where to go. I like editing them, and fitting them slightly so I can create the character to enter. I don't change the character, but when I'm auditioning I have to do what I have to do and if I don't remember the lines... I'm well, to put it blatantly, screwed.

Cause if You can't remember your lines, they won't want you.


Ever wonder why film stars go back to theatre? Easily explained, Theatre is where they can get back to real acting. Not to say film isn't real, just it's easier to do. I like both, but theatre has more adrenaline and less room for error. Film has more hours, like 4 hours of shooting for one minute of the movie.


Also, I'm not that kind of actor who has sex to get to the top. I have talent. I'm not afraid to use my talent. My talent was recently discovered by someone who gave me a chance. I'm not thickheaded or anything, saying I'm the best. But I'm learning, and what is an actor if the actor doesn't learn? Nothing. If an actor doesn't learn, well they better stop being an actor.

Explanation.

You may be wondering why my blog is titled, 'Where are you when the curtain rises?' I'm virtually very good at coming up with titles. but when trying to sum up a name for something like a blog. I can't seem to come up with anything. I want it said that this is something I took from an advertisement. I don't believe it should be copyrighted where I can't use it as a blog title because if you think of it. I'm an actor. I should be affiliated with asking that question, and I just think it rings so well with me. I really love it.

That is my explanation. (also if the people who did the advertisement think of suing me, My defense is.. I'm not taking the TAGLINE. I'm just taking the question, and making an inquiry of others.)

Okay, Got it :)

Slushie and I, we met through a friend. But not just anywhere. Let me start from the top.

I know me and him met once before because of my friend but I never saw him again for a while. For a while, I was afraid of seeing him again. Cause I really WAS attracted to him. But I had Major Abuser as a boyfriend at the time. I felt sick. So, I smiled said bye to my friend and everybody, waved to him bye. Major Abuser broke up with me that day.

THAN A MONTH (Or something like that) LATER, I saw my friend again so I smiled gave her a hug. And we were reintroduced, this time I started a conversation. Oh my... my conversation with him wasn't the best first impression. I was talking about Choppers, but since I didn't know what the term was I called them..... Leisure bikes. Slushie corrected me, but I now know the term. After a week, he said for me to give him a call so we could have lunch some time.

Little did I know, he canceled his business trip to New York for me.. I sent him a text, but he didn't have text. So the next week I met up with him again, and it made me happy. We kept meeting at the very bench that we started talking at.

Now, I will tell you he is no rebound. Why? cause I had my chance to mourn for that month that I didn't seem him again. When I was reintroduced, I definitely thought he was attractive. So I don't believe him to be any rebound. You may think a month is too short a time, but it really wasn't because to me I got over it the same day and I had fun for a while.

I'm glad that me and him are dating. Although our first unofficial date, was a massacre. I had invited my best friend, not the friend that I met him through. I just made a mess of it, because well my friend wanted to come along and I couldn't say no cause me and her were hanging out like every day.

So, I was obligated...

Oh but when we were alone... wow, he really grabbed my attention. Slushie is a really good kisser and show me just how much of a wild animal he had. To tell the truth, I like that so much in Slushie.

V <3's Slushie

We have been dating, we decided after not knowing the actual date when we were official to start at the unofficial date day, So we have been dating for 5 months, 1 week and 6 days.

and WOW :) I have to say he is the greatest, and the best for me.

I'm happy knowing that when he feels bad, I can make him feel better. I love that what I do effects him. I love knowing that I love him and he loves me back.

Oh he will never stop bringing up the fact he said, 'I love you' or 'I'm falling for you' first. Ladies, we all know who felt it first, right? ;) Anyways, it wasn't difficult to lower my barrier though. I know I felt it first but I didn't have the courage to say it first. Why?

Well, he had told me about his ex. But when he said it, he as told me that she was the only girlfriend that he could ever love. So I'm really glad I got him over her. I mean, seriously he is a great guy. She missed out.

Oh, and Slushie is very overprotective. Mainly, I think it's because of her cheating on him. But I don't mind. I never had a guy that wanted to be over protective of me. I feel safer when I'm with him then when I am in my own home with family inside the house.

Maybe I'll add pictures of me and him later.

Work Situation.

Okay, I have to call at 9:30 pm. To double check what I'm getting. First job in the food industry :)

I want to be a waiter, so I can work with people. But I'm not going to be that type of waiter who expects just because they are overly nice that they THINK they deserve a big tip. I KNOW I'm the type of waiter that would be overly nice that wouldn't care whether I got a tip or not.

I'd appreciate it, but I wouldn't think I deserve it.

Remember: TIPS are APPRECIATED ;)

Okay so meanwhile that I'm waiting for an overtly long time, since it is 8:10 and to get the information I want. I have to wait... which I can be patient. But it gets tiresome on the body as it makes me anxious. SO To keep my mind off, let me tell you a little bit more about myself. Okay, I live in the Sunshine State. WHATEVER YOU DO! Do not think I live in California, there just so happens to be a Sunshine State with Oranges as well. If you know what I am talking about, Good for you. If you don't, let me just say. You might think old people come here to die.

Not true. I wish I could tell you more, but I don't. Next thing about me.

I am Currently Taken. Yes, I am off the market. I am not available. SO please, don't tell me how beautiful I am and some internet nothings. It will not work.

I love him, and he loves me. We are happy, although right now I am typing it without his consent, so he will know I am talking about him eventually. As I do in anything involving the internet.. (facebook, myspace, twitter) I have yet to say in a video blog how much I love him. So that will be next.

Before you think, "OMG" to that. I must say, I am a theatre major, and an english and education major.. Mainly being a theatre major though. Since most of my classes consist of THEATRE. Just look at the title of the blog :D Spells it out for you huh?

Okay, what else. Well I'm a bit of a nerd... okay that is a lie, I'm a B-I-G NERD in all caps.

Talking to my Boyfriend on the phone..... 8:35 pm

He is very worried about losing me. He doesn't know, that I am way more afraid of losing him. He is by far the best boyfriend I have ever had. My previous boyfriends were so lame....

(FOLLOWING NAMES are nicknames that I have given them now)

QuietBoy, me and him were always quiet. We would stay quiet and sit together. So for two months that was how it was. He was a gamer, and I thoroughly encouraged that. My brother helped me buy him 'Saints Row' for christmas. Than January I found myself without a boyfriend. He told me, 'He wasn't ready for a girlfriend' Two weeks later, he's dating his best friends ex. His best friend.. interested in me. (everyone thinks he is gay.)

Faraway waves, I don't have anything bad to say about him. If he lived in the states, I would still be with him. But promises can only run so long.... and money never comes up when you need it. I said my goodbyes, and farewells. But if I ever write in a bottle to put in the water.. I would write to him and hope it gets there safely so he could hear how I'm doing now.

Major Abuser, I have to say for someone soooooo "smart", he really had his head stuck up his anus. Number one, this guy hurt me. He would take away my phone and when I tried to get it back, he would use a pressure point on my thumb and then put my arm behind my back. He didn't do it softly either. He smokes weed, and he is very PRO ARMY. Wow, you would think they didn't go hand to hand. Now his line for breaking up with me, 'I don't want to spend the rest of my life with you.' (Luckily he did break up with me, he made me feel sick.)

Chess Wimp and Stick Drama, they both happened at the same time. Chess wimp, not much to say about him. Loves Chess,and made fun of me *rolls eyes*.. Stick Drama, OMG, can I say worse than a woman? Seriously, he really needs to grow some. I doubt he has.

Now, I MUST tell you about my Boyfriend.

I won't post his name here, yet. Until I have permission to use his name or a nickname.

Now, he is the most amazing guy. (all you women with boyfriends, don't flame or say yours is.. This is my blog.. MY opinion, go to your blog and say it.. and link mine to say why your saying it ^^) Let me explain why..

First, he makes me happy. Always a plus. He also is protective of me, and I don't mean regular protective. I mean, real Protective. Bodyguard like. Which I think is sooo cute. I find my boyfriend adorable, when he is playing his video games, or playing with his cards. .... I feel like posting up how we met now :) ( But next post when I get permission for the name thing). He knows how to make me laugh, and cares so much. Think of us as already Engaged, because even though he hasn't proposed yet and I don't have a ring. We are going to be. We just want college out of the way. We also need money to move in together, not like this economy is going to help.

Alright , oh he is strong. Fast. He physically attracts me, but not only that. He has a brain. (feminists LOOK AWAY) He admits that he thinks of me as his territory. But I understand why, because he explained it to me. I agree. We are very different people, you would never think that me and him were dating if you met us separately. Then again, you would know the second that we were in the same room.

Sorry if my thought are being just blurted out, I usually just type for ages if I have no topic line. Or essay themed way. Or novel... I'm just typing my thought process...

Hey there.

I must admit that I am very dubious of my intentions when I created this blog. I did it for the sake that I can win a scholarship. I need money for college. So I steal money from real bloggers, by creating a blog only to win. Now MInd you this is more of a chore for me than meets the eye. I have to come here every day and post my life. So I'm going to take what I can, including money.

Cruel? You might say? Peh, I am far from cruel.... in person. I shall figure out how to do this from my phone so it can be sooooo much easier.