For my Followers.

Sorry, that I have been kind of M.I.A at the moment.
Just with school and school..Yeah, that is correct right now I don't have a job. I am not fired or anything so I am good. I would look for a job, but I have almost no time between School and social time and I am not willing to give up social time. Social time is my time. For friends and for le boyfriend.

Which le boyfriend thinks, I get out of my school responsibilities to hang out with my friends more than I would with him.
So not true, but I understand why he thinks that. I agree that it seems that way, but I am a nice person. When someone needs a ride, I give it to them. Although he shouldn't complain cause when he did that, I knew that he was angry so I immediately gave up all my hours that I could have received that day and went to him. WHy did I do a stupid thing like that?(you may be wondering and if you aren't...good)
Cause I love him. When he gets upset or angry I am the only person that can make him feel better.If I cause him the agony. I definitely need to be there. I cannot let any other girl move in on my man. I have too perfect a man.
Sorry Ladies, but the most perfect man is my man.

Now for friends, I don't usually do things like quit hours.I quit more hours for my boyfriend than my friends. But when I do quit hours, it's either to eat or to give them a ride somewhere. Which I believe . Aphrodite . needed it yesterday. Her acrylics had to come off. Because, well, she is in the show.

Now, reason why I am writing now. Is because well, I can't write later tonight.. or maybe I can. Depends on the day. I still have to tell you about Girls' Night out at chile's. It's one of those things. That I have to say because well.... It was a blast!!!!
We are going to have another this friday.

:) well Tah-Tah for now.
BTW Love you . Selene . ;) You know who you guys are.

R.I.P 7

Yes, it is true. He has passed away. He didn't die of disease or natural means. He was hit by a car. I cannot tell you how much I have cried or will cry. But he, even though it was such a short time, will be with me forever. I feel as if there is so much I could have done to prevent this. But I didn't and I didn't take so many pictures of him as I did his sister but I was going to. See, I was going to neuter him but he died before that could happen. I have pictures of him and his sister and him alone. He was a cheetah, and his sister a lioness. I am going to try to keep Ferrari with me as long as I can.

How I wish that we could have had more time.... How I wish whoever had hit him with their car Dies..... Because their lives don't matter to me. If they cared I would have cared. But that is not the case, I hope that my dear 7 is in a better place. TIme heals all wounds, and when I am dead it will heal my bleeding everything. Because I never heal. I stitch up, so no one sees my pain. I numb it away, so others won't know what I feel.


Seven, I hope that you didn't feel any pain. I hope it was instant and right now you are somewhere playing catnip. My beloved Seven. I hope you are well.

Cat Houdini

Ferrari, officially dubbed the 'Intellectual'. She has been able to escape the kitty collars that we give her. At least she likes me, I would hate to be on her bad side. Not that it would effect me if she did, cause I could battle the best. But she's cute, so I like her. She has a personality to her. Glad that my Miracle found her and adopted her, even though Harley the first cat to be found by my baby and adopted doesn't like her. Seven, Ferrari's older brother, is like the druggie type cat. . . except at the same time, I don't see it.

To my angel.

For you I shall lift your burdens,
Your Enemies will never touch you.

You shall be placed on a pedestal forever protected,
Full of Happiness and grace.

Your beauty will never wilt, for the world will see you through my eyes.
Then it shall fall in love with you as well.



Love your Angel in Disguise.

Home Sick

I am here at home, sick. Coughing like crazy, under house arrest. Not by the law, not by my dad, but by my boyfriend.

But I know why, it's because I am sick. I didn't get any rest last night. My throat hurts from all the coughing.

Rodriguez, Blue eyes, and Dani can confirm. . . . .

I'm just very very ill right now.

I love Slushie, I don't get to see him today... Sucks I know.


No juicy tidbits about him for you, except that he loves me and we are looking for matching rings.

CORRECTION: I am looking for Matching rings. Let's just say, I'm tired of people flirting with me. It's flattering but I don't enjoy it. Makes me wish I had a tattoo of a stop sign on my forehead.


I don't want to be approached, can't men tell the 'stop talking to me' language. Shutting people off, one word talk back.

There is no weakness on this fortress. Never have, never will.

Even when I am at my weakest (meaning sick).

Slushie keeps me strong.
He is my ball and chain, he keeps me grounded from flying. I do not want to fly, and if I do. I want him to come with me. I have always been afraid of flying up to the sky near space. I'm glad he holds my hand to keep me from floating.

You may not understand, but I don't like to think about space.

I am glad he saves me from my head popping. I use to dream about being Peter Pan, I want to stay down and I would grab the nearest hand outstretched to me. Never wanting to let go.


It's true I don't.

"Deadly" Space

One can only read so much before wanting to write about it. Although I have read only a couple pages, I must say I enjoy Peter's way of writing. Even though I see a few grammatical, as usually a English/Lit and Theatre major would obviously notice, errors. I like the way that Peter incites that it is boring to do Shakespeare the usual way (old clothes and long speeches). To me this tells me to break out of the mold as a director. Incredible, isn't it? Imagine Shakespeare differently. What would I do before it is too different?

Now dragging from that perspective, what would I do in the first place? Although Shakespeare, is in itself a work of art. How can I make it my own? I would have to read the play and decide from their. I know as an actor I don't have to think this way. As a director however, I do.

Dude...

Some things are just royally fucked up. But anyways the best way is to look into the future, and have fun while you still can. I am trying to get ladies night out and about so we REAL ladies can show the Kardashians who really owns ***** :)

Cause I love to show up some rich bitches.


Also sorry if this post is really short. Just at the moment. I feel as if Short and sweet will do the job. Otherwise, I will rant.. And we don't want that on our hands, do we?

Hey :)

Okay, this one is one of the best women I have ever met in my life.

Dragon Blue Eyes

Right now she is having technical difficulties.

Auditions went....

I really have no idea how they went. But let me tell you, there is a very strong feeling that I didn't get the part.. The thing that upsets me about that is... the fact that I was freezing and starving at the same time. I'm not exaggerating here, my nail beds were blue yes... Blue.

I freaked out.

Anyways, I rather hope that I wasn't there for an extra hour for no reason. Cause they really put it off till later.

I know he said it was difficult, but I would have rather found out today that I didn't make it. Than actually knowing that night in front of everyone. At least.. It's humiliating to be rejected enough. Now add a whole crowd. I really didn't like that. It's like we really were on a reality t.v show. and the four os us didn't make it. I mean the second I hear one name, and I know her... she is really good. I knew I was cut. Then when another girl was cut, I was like... oh no. Cause she's great too. Than I knew for sure I was cut.

I will check the cast list, or ask Ian to check for me if I am too embarrassed or if I just am late to school.. Okay speaking of school I got to got..

Traffic+Parking= Late


*Update*

10:40 pm

Okay, I'm pissed. But not about the casting or the not being asm thing.. never about the casting or asm. Let me just tell you something. I really can't love a certain someone (not Slushie, never him.. I love him) but I do not want to say who it is because they invade my privacy beyond measure!!!!! There was only one place I felt safe and I will not disclose it, just in case.


Sometimes I wonder what death has in store for me, and sometimes I really wish that lightning did strike me today (it almost did, and this is the second time that it almost did). Problem is, I don't want to die- I couldn't rest knowing that I couldn't reach my goals in life for however short it was.