Oh my goodness...

What a streak of luck... or divinity. Okay okay, let me start from the beginning.

OKay Georgie and I were walking my dog, my Slushie was at work and I decided to do some school work with her. See I am in her class only for her, I am not actually taking it. Now, in a sense, I do have to do my best although it is not for a grade. It's for practice. As an actor I can't get enough of practice.

The thing is, we were running lines paying attention to little else, except walking my dog.. I have to tell you. We were distracted only for my dog.SO after we walked the dog came home talked about what we needed for the scene. Little else mattered... Or so I knew... Cause when I got into my car to drop Georgie off. Halfway to another main street. I made a very dangerous u-turn.... Like I didn't care if there were cars or anything I MADE that U-turn. I believe it was clear but I have no idea.... I just WENT. The reason: I LOST MY NECKLACE THAT SLUSHIE GAVE ME :( Now as soon as I got home, I looked through my room, walked with Georgie the whole area we walked. I was sooo upset.. I kept having a feeling it was at the smoothie place or it's parking lot. I felt all the sorrow one could feel, I wasn't thinking of the future. I wanted to cry. But I couldn't take Georgie to the smoothie place again and make her search with me.. it wasn't fair to her. So I took her too the college we both go to so she can get into her car and drive home. She knew how bad I felt, she's really my soul twin.

I kept apologizing to Slushie, because I felt so bad. I love Him and everything he gives me I hold dear. You can only imagine how I felt when I lost my necklace. Now the next morning my gut was telling me ( more like a feeling guided me..I just felt hollow in my stomach) to go back to the smoothie place.. or call them first and check while you are on the way. I did call them. They didn't have it or find it on their floor. I knew one last place to look... The parking lot.

I prayed to my goddess and god that somehow it would still be there. I don't think I had to promise anything, but I knew I would have to be kinder.. I believe I have to be kinder to my mother... who isn't all there. Now enough about her... I was about to turn in to park at the same parking space I parked in. . . . . . . I had my face plastered to the window so I immediately saw it. My feeling was so powerful that it struck me I almost left my car in drive.. so I put it in park ran out picked it up ran back inside and checked it.. It looked bent but I don't care, you can't notice. The only thing is it does have a few scratches on the front from the rough pavement maybe someone parked over it or something. I am so happy no one took it.

I didn't curse it.... I actually said, well if anyone does take it. I hope it fills their life with happiness. Like it did mine...

OH BOY WAS I RIGHT!!!
I was soooo happy. Relieved. It's like when you have to pee really badly, but you have been holding it in for a long while.... You can't run or you will pee. You have to try to walk quickly cause it is almost there you don't care to lock the door even in a public stall you get the closest on to the door you still check for toilet seat cleanliness while you are unzipping unbuckling and or unbuttoning. Then you pull down your pants and pee like a racehorse and .... you let out that moan of relief.... I believe that was how relieved I was... That physical need.

Yes.

That need.

I am so glad I have my necklace back, I am not wearing it at the moment. I am waiting till we make it able to wear... The silk rope we need to burn the knot..and I am going to buy a long chain for it.


Oh I am so happy. My love and I are smiling... I love it...


YES!!!