A Deeper Appreciation

Yes, it is true. I have a deeper appreciation for crew and all sorts of tech. As an actor, I always have been very courteous, and loving of anyone who made me up or dressed me or did anything involving the show.

Now, I see (since I am crewing the show) how much of a relief I am to anyone that crews. I am sweet. Most actors are not, I do not like that I do not get the same treatment of how I treat my crew from the actors. Most of them I know very well. Why must actors have diva modes? I do not understand this. I never had diva mode, unless I was pretending to. But damn it.

I hate being a bitch. It sucks cause I can be sweet most of the time. But if I do one mean thing I would be labeled a bitch.


I do not want to be a bitch, why? No one likes a bitch. . . I don't like a bitch.

So excuse me, I am sorry if I get frustrated and sometimes I want to cry because I just feel like bonking them on the head and then... taking their place in the show.

But I don't know the lines.. I know some.. but not all of them. I also wouldn't want to do that because well... I rather not.
I love acting, but this isn't a play for me. I could, but it would suck with me in it.

SO I am just venting. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Otherwise, dead actors might be posted on the newspaper.. Just kidding... maybe.