:) Good, no rocky boat

Yeah, for a while... My boyfriend and I were in very rocky waters. It's good that we aren't now, I don't think I would be happy if we were. Since well, you can only guess a fragment of how much I love him. Unless you are in love with someone right now... Well.. you would be able to guess a tinier bit more I believe. I realized that no relationship is perfect, that you have to work on/at it.

Anyways, he can't go to the cast party. So I will be taking Selene, she is so nice to me. But she won't take anyones crap I bet, like if I was mean and stuff. But poor Georgie, she has an all nighter to do. She will go for an hour but she has to leave after that to the all nighter. Sometimes, I wish I could pause time. But that would fuck up our axis... among other things like our rotation, and all the clocks in the world would be minutes late. Cast party= <3


I cannot wait till later, why? well... Callbacks are today and I will find out if I get called back. I know I won't because..... I effed up on my monologue. Oh but Selene auditioned... However, there will always be this fear I might lose her. Cause well... I am an oddball, Georgie is an oddball, Aphrodite is an oddball. The oddballs are the outcasts of the theatre group(but the good kind of outcasts), we aren't the regular kind. We are also outcasts of "normal" society, because we are "Drama" Kids. Georgie is a techie, Aphrodite and I are actors, and Selene will hopefully join us. But we don't want to lose her. Mainly because there are factions within factions. If you catch my drift, I don't do that.... but not everybody loves like I do. I have a heart for almost everyone I meet. They can abuse it, use it, or whatever with it. But I do have a heart for them. That is why I say 'I love you' to them. If they break it... maybe they might get that heart back or maybe it is irreparable. But I love them, each and everyone of them. In their own way... Sometimes I break down though, and think I am not loved. But why wouldn't they love me?

I know they do, even if they don't show it.


Hope my boyfriend doesn't get jealous. He owns the whole heart. There are just many factions within it. ;)