Auditions went....

I really have no idea how they went. But let me tell you, there is a very strong feeling that I didn't get the part.. The thing that upsets me about that is... the fact that I was freezing and starving at the same time. I'm not exaggerating here, my nail beds were blue yes... Blue.

I freaked out.

Anyways, I rather hope that I wasn't there for an extra hour for no reason. Cause they really put it off till later.

I know he said it was difficult, but I would have rather found out today that I didn't make it. Than actually knowing that night in front of everyone. At least.. It's humiliating to be rejected enough. Now add a whole crowd. I really didn't like that. It's like we really were on a reality t.v show. and the four os us didn't make it. I mean the second I hear one name, and I know her... she is really good. I knew I was cut. Then when another girl was cut, I was like... oh no. Cause she's great too. Than I knew for sure I was cut.

I will check the cast list, or ask Ian to check for me if I am too embarrassed or if I just am late to school.. Okay speaking of school I got to got..

Traffic+Parking= Late


*Update*

10:40 pm

Okay, I'm pissed. But not about the casting or the not being asm thing.. never about the casting or asm. Let me just tell you something. I really can't love a certain someone (not Slushie, never him.. I love him) but I do not want to say who it is because they invade my privacy beyond measure!!!!! There was only one place I felt safe and I will not disclose it, just in case.


Sometimes I wonder what death has in store for me, and sometimes I really wish that lightning did strike me today (it almost did, and this is the second time that it almost did). Problem is, I don't want to die- I couldn't rest knowing that I couldn't reach my goals in life for however short it was.