I cried today..

I cried so hard that I got a headache, I don't want to share why I cried or what caused it. I know what caused it and I don't want to go down memory lane of the this day again.

Repressing is bad but I rather be happy or try to get happy then cry again and again and again. I know it is not the end of the world and life will go on, even without me.

But maybe the without me is what I am afraid of.. I wish the world would stop, I wish it was all Full moon, stars and Night sky... But it's not. It's harsh day light too.

UGHHHHH!!!!

I just wish I could cry hard and get it out of my system but it is there and I hurt and I can't stand it... I really am leaning toward violent means at the moment..which is bad cause I don't want violence.... I JUST WANT A RELEASE!!!