Perfectly happy

We can never be Perfectly Happy. No matter how we try to convince ourselves. There is always something better. That is why there are cheaters in the world. That is why there are con men. Basically that is why Greed Exists.
WE WANT BETTER!
But better doesn't exist, we can never be satiated with what we know to be better. Because when we have better, we want better than that. So where does it all end?

I say it never will.

Technology, homes, significant others...

We all look for what we can get the most out of, and to think about it. I mean, really think about it. What do we truly deserve?

I know that there are a lot of poor people who deserve more than they have. I know that there are a lot of rich people that shouldn't have what they do. I also know a few people who need a baseball bat to the face, that includes some celebrities.

I also know I don't deserve a whole lot.

I try to be kind to people, and even when they walk over me. I still try to be kind. I still reach out my hand to help out someone.

I believe it is in a desire to feel better that I did a good deed. Otherwise, like some people would probably think.. What is the point of being kind?

Well I know, why.... I want to be better than I am.

I think that is one of the betters I really try to get.. and it's true. I can never satiate myself with how better I can be. Because I always want more.

Sorry this turned out to be either philosophical or something to the nature of finding myself or being whatever this is.

Just thinking... Which I think I lost the train of thought.

Or maybe I am subconsciously stopping myself..